Life

Seemingly, there's something I need to be doing right now... Something like ("peeple" et al) reading, or maybe making academic discussions, and so forth and so on... because (truth be said) here are exams yelling at me, and that should be the best thing to do: read, read and read (as I am expected to); but well, the typical me cares less. Okay, let me set this right: I don't "CARE LESS" but I "care less." Got it? Good.

So, I care less about exams and their fever, and the madness they throw at (and into) people; and the running up and down while formulating funny group discussions, and the fear on people's faces... I care less about all those things that are attached to "too much" studying. I am lazy. In fact, you should never come to me while seeking for advice concerning studies and education. I am not your best consultant in such matters. No, I'm not. You don't take advice from a guy who watches 3 to 4 episodes of a favorite movie prior examinations, do you? But I'm just being practical and real: I don't love school. Worse still, I hate exams. Everyone hates exams, yeah, everyone... (so I think). I hate school because school grounds me. And oh my! how I hate being grounded! I am sincere. I hate school. Yes, kill me already, but that's just me... I always wish someone would just step up out of nowhere, study on my behalf, do my exams, pass them and leave me rolling out here doing, er, nothing. That's just me. I love being myself... Don't mistake me. Don't judge me either. I don't "HATE" school, but I do "hate" school. The difference? I don't know. Use Google. He/she might help.

And with all that going on in my life right here, right now, I replay in my mind things life has taught me. Things like: pretenders die first, fast. And others like: I only have one life - the one I have, the one God has taught me. Just one. The rest is a mystery... With that in mind, I have learnt to fall in love with who I truly am. Why? First, it is the best thing one can do for themselves; then, there is one good thing about being yourself: you don't struggle to become "it". Nope! You already are "it".

That's why I've chosen to keep my notepad busy when everyone else is doing whatever they do best. Today is one of those days I do exactly that: maintain being myself. And as always, I'll never blame anyone after passing or failing my exams. It's my fault baby, it's all my fault...

Many things happening around me of late have gotten me thinking. You see, life has many decisions to undertake in order "to make it". Some are stupid (the decisions). Some are wise. We ALL have fallen victim of both. Some have made us regret why we EVER, yes, EVER made them, while others have made us beam with pride and raise our heads up high. It has all been upon us... We all have enjoyed somewhere in life, and we all have wept. Sometimes it's for the wrong reasons, while other times it's for the right ones... We choose to live this life like we gonna, then we start living it like we wanna... it is all up to us. We should blame no one. We should hold no one accountable for our choices... That's just another lesson I'm still learning...

I always want to learn from my own experiences. Yes, I may have few, but that's the only way I learn faster and I understand better. Maybe you ain't like me, but I'll show you why I choose to do so;

1. I am of the mindset that I am the only one who can ever be "me". No one else can ever teach me to be "me" than myself and God. The two of us are the best collabo in making "me". So I'd rather learn from us than from anyone else.
2. I am proud. I don't go well with someone wanting to show me "all the stuff that there is to be known." I'd rather do it myself and suffer along the way... but with my ego "intact."
3. How else will I discover new ways of doing stuff unless I try it myself? Tell me, how else? So, God help me.

To finish up, life has taught me to take risks. Sometimes it is not because I WANTED to, but because I HAD to... I have taken risks in my relationships, risks in my day-to-day life, risks with God, risks with friends, risks with my family (which I so much miss so many times), risks with love, risks with finances, risks with my mingling leadership, work and education. Risks...

And I still have to wake up tomorrow morning and tell myself, "You know what Morris? It's another day booy! Bless the Lord your God, and let's go out there, get it started and make it work..."

And life goes on. It never stops. The challenges never stop. My heart never stops. Betrayals never stop. Blame games never stop. Gossip behind your back never stops. Stalkers, spies and detectives never stop doing their thang on you. Academics never stop. Work never stops. Even worship itself never stops... Nothing ever stops. Life goes on... and unless I stop it by allowing stuff to bulk in my way (bitterness, grudges, unforgiveness, pain, hurts, words from peeple... stuff), or unless God does, it will still go on... it shall never stop... until we meet with eternity... never ending...

Yes, that is life.


BonfaceMorris.